I’ve wanted to write this for a long time; I am having a baby!
Now that I’m sat here in front of the keyboard, I’m not entirely sure that the words will come out eloquently. It wasn’t planned but it was amazing, exciting, terrifying news when I found out, by chance, on my birthday at an early pregnancy scan. My doctor sent me; I thought I was having other issues. Then up on the ultrasound screen popped up a little blurry shape. “… And there’s your baby,” said the nurse. Life-changing words. My hand flew to my mouth and I looked, wide-eyed at Rich, and he looked back. We walked out together grinning like idiots.
I’ve known for weeks as we found out very early on, but didn’t want to share until after my 12-week scan. I’ve had some early problems and had to rush to A&E a month ago, but so far, all has been well despite what’s gone on. I am full of trepidation and excitement and so many emotions and feelings, and more than anything want my baby to arrive safely, healthily and happily in August. I am going to be a mother. I am going to be a mother!
After feeling like I was treading water for a while, my life suddenly has a very clear direction that I need to follow. Lying there at my 12-week scan with Rich beside me, watching our little baby wiggle and kick and wave its arms (and at one point, go into a dive position with its hands above its head) was just amazing. We made this life. I’m growing this baby and I am so proud of it already.
Because it’s not been plain sailing so far, I’m still quite nervous about my first pregnancy – there’s just so much to know and learn and I just want everything to be GOOD now – but all I can do now is look after myself and put my trust in my body, and in nature. It’s such a wonderful thing, and I didn’t appreciate it fully until it happened to me.
So this year there’s a lot to do; house renovations, making sure we have lots of fresh, organically grown food at our hands here at home, and preparations as we make space for a new addition. My life is going to change… it’s already changing 🙂
